3 Things I Love (and Don’t Love) About Owning a Sex Doll

I have owned a collection of life size dolls for many years, and collecting them has become a special hobby for me. It started because I was curious and wanted something more real than a hand or a small sex toy. My first big doll was a 90lb silicone BBW. 

I chose her because I wanted it to feel real and have a body like the ones I like. Since then, I have four dolls, including a small one that is easy to move and another BBW doll made of soft TPE. She’s a stunner! TPE sex dolls offer the perfect balance of realistic appearance, human skin, and a realistic feel that closely mimics real bodies. And oh… those realistic breasts--what a pleasure!

Living with these “ladies” has been a strange, yes… but interesting experience. They are mostly like very fancy sex toys, and sometimes they are like someone being there with me when I don’t want the stress of dating. For me, having a sex doll takes more proper care, has surprises, and can even make you laugh. Here’s what I liked…and what I didn’t.

3 Things I Love About Owning a Sex Doll

So what actually do I enjoy about having a sex doll?

1. The “Cuddle Companion” Factor

Surprisingly, it’s not always about sex. I often feel more comfortable sleeping next to or hugging a doll. Having a human-shaped figure in bed makes the room feel less empty and feels like someone is really there. My silicone BBW is heavy and hard to move, but she feels firmer and very real to hold at night, and it helps me sleep better.

For me, the doll is a stand-in when I’m not looking for a real relationship. I set her up like I used to cuddle with my ex (F her!), which might seem silly to some, but it’s very comfortable. It’s nice to hold a human-shaped figure while fulfilling my wild fantasies.

2. Total Customization and Aesthetics

I love being able to choose exactly what my “partner” looks like, from eye color and hair to body types like curvy hips and large breasts. The endless customization options. These dolls are real works of art. Once I adjust their faces and eyes to look more natural, they look very realistic. Whether it’s the soft, skin like feel of my TPE sex doll or the life-like look of silicone, the details are topnotch!

At the same time, having these dolls has become a fun hobby for me. I like taking photos, dressing them in different clothes, and doing their makeup. Taking care of them and setting up their space feels like a special hobby. Seeing her in my favorite FF7 Tifa outfit and wig makes everything feel more personal and special.

3. A Safe Space for Experimentation

What’s more, owning dolls lets me try different positions without worrying about another person. There is no pressure and no stress. It also gives me a workout and makes me move my body more. I can take my time, learn what I like, and no one judges me. For a single guy, it feels much better than using my hand alone.

And… ownership helps me stay calm and clear-headed. When my needs are handled at home, I don’t feel tense or desperate when I talk to real women. It takes the pressure off and lets me slow down. Because of that, I can tell the difference between real feelings and simple physical urges, instead of chasing a quick hook-up.

3 Things I Hate About Owning a Sex Doll

Of course, there are some downsides

1. The “Dead Weight” Struggle

Let’s be honest: moving a 90-lb doll is really hard. It feels like carrying a floppy, human-shaped bag of cement. Even if you’re strong, the weight feels much heavier than it is. Trying to move her into position or drag her to the shower to clean her is a big chore and can kill the mood right away.

Also, the heavy weight is awkward, so I have to be careful not to hurt my arms or back. I even wrap her feet in plastic bags to stop the bolts from rusting or damaging my tub. If you’re not ready for the hard work, having a full-sized doll can be a big, tiring job.

2. The Maintenance and Material Issues

Unlike its silicone counterpart, my TPE doll collects lint, hair, and dust, so I have to clean her a lot. TPE doll’s skin also gets sticky after washing, so I use cornstarch, which can make a mess on the floor. Silicone is easier to clean, but it can tear or peel if you are not careful. If a part breaks, it is hard to fix.

And don’t forget the cleaning after use–this is maybe the hardest part (at least for me). Standing in the shower, scrubbing a durable silicone body, and cleaning the inside with mild soap for 20 to 60 minutes is not fun. Drying and powdering her afterward takes a long time and feels unsexy… Really.

3. The “Solid Snake” Hiding Game

People think this hobby is strange, so I spend a lot of energy keeping it a secret. When guests or family visit, I hide the dolls in closets under clothes or make them look like piles of pillows on my bed. I’m always worried that someone might see a doll’s head on a desk or a limp body in the closet, which makes me anxious.

Telling neighbors why a five-foot box came is really, really awkward, as well. I often have to lie and say it’s a “grandfather clock” or a “family heirloom.”  LOL! Keeping this secret takes a lot of careful work, like a “Solid Snake” mission, and it can feel very lonely. That’s for sure.

Final Thoughts

For me, having a real sex doll is a give-and-take. I get the comfort, the convenience, and a way to satisfy myself without judgment, but it also takes a lot of work and care. It’s not a replacement for real human connection, but for someone like me, who enjoys my own company or isn’t ready for a relationship, it’s a useful tool that makes life a little easier.

If you are a first-time buyer, my best advice is to pay attention to the weight. Start with one under 65 lbs (30 kg), because moving a 90-lb BBW is a lot of work and can get frustrating fast. If you worry about privacy, reputable brands like WM Dolls, Funwest Dolls, Piper Dolls, and YL Doll use discreet shipping, sending plain, unmarked boxes so your secret stays safe from curious neighbors. Good luck!

FAQs

Is it weird to own more than one?

I don’t think it’s weird at all. For me, it’s a hobby, like collecting cars or sports stuff. I have four dolls, but I know people who have ten or more. They enjoy setting up and taking care of their “harem.” Each doll feels different–my silicone BBW feels one way, my soft TPE doll feels another–so having different dolls is part of the fun and adds to the realism.

How do you clean them?

Cleaning my dolls is hard work. I have to carry them into the shower and wash them with warm water and antibacterial soap. I clean the inside with a douche, then make sure she is completely dry using rods or air pumps so mold does not grow. Then, I put cornstarch or baby powder on her so TPE does not get sticky and keep it in good condition.

How much do TPE sex dolls and silicone sex dolls cost?

From my experience, you get what you pay for. Good. flexible TPE (thermoplastic elastomer) dolls cost $1,000 to $2,000, though some simple ones can be as low as $700. Some are even tax free. 

High quality material like silicone is more expensive (probably because it’s a non porous material and improved tear resistance feature), starting around $1,500–$3,000, and custom premium sex dolls can cost $5,000 to $7,000. 

I always tell people to avoid very cheap dolls on Amazon or Wish, as they often break easily or are made with unsafe materials.

Do love dolls come with discreet shipping?

Yes, most good brands do this. My dolls always came in plain, unmarked boxes or wooden crates, which is the industry standard. Most of the time, the goal of these brands is privacy, so only you know what’s in the box.

What’s the current trend for sex doll industry?

The doll industry is changing fast. Dolls are not still anymore; they can have robots and AI inside. Some dolls can get warm like a real body, make sounds with AI, and even move parts of their body. Every year, they look and feel more real.